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antarctica

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i think the reason

i am reluctant

to share photos

of antarctica

is because I covet them

closely

like something

huge

you are unable

to describe

adequately

or even at all

.

antarctica

is the earth

as it was made

unmarred

by us

you see

how harmful we

have been

to the rest of our

planet

in comparison

you see the glory

and fear the potential

death of it

too

.

if you haven’t been

you haven’t seen

what is

there

in the ice

you can feel

this

other places

in the world too

if you look

with an open mind

but in antarctica

it was an epiphany

for me

.

maybe it is good

that in 2008

only 100,000

people had been there

if more of us

had been

we might have made of it

now

what we have

of the rest of the planet

it is the last

remaining refuge

on earth

.

is God

disappointed

in us

for our

stewardship

or lack

thereof

of our world

maybe

we could

do something

more

than we are

to preserve

our sacred places

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obviously

maybe

he wasn’t meant

to be a lawyer

sitting on my shoulder

now

up there

in heaven or hell

watching me disappoint

and you too

maybe

don’t forget

all of us

really

.

. 

he was nice to dogs

and neighbors

he was from chicago

he struggled

with anxiety

maybe that

was the reason

.

.

the case

was his idea

not mine

i couldn’t

wouldn’t

proceed

he said it was

my only option

so i did

.

.

and then

he seemed

to balk

he said

he was uneasy

had never done

anything

quite this before

.

.

i tried to help

saying

let’s proceed

normally

on the merits

like you would

usually

.

.

obviously

that didn’t work

the case

wasn’t the problem

the lawyer was

.

.

the case now won

the lawyer lost

would that one could

call him up

and ask

why

or say

please don’t

.

.

was it because

he was a good person

nice to dogs

neighbors

or from chicago

a cold city

so i hear

.

.

was he burned

envenomated

injured

to turn on himself

this way

.

.

we all are

you know

in some ways

someone said

kill all the lawyers

but maybe he

was wrong

.

.

we don’t have to

if they do it themselves

in the process of billing

they can’t cash

the checks

after

after all

.

.

what do the dead

think of us

do you wonder

i think

they do

think

.

.

why did he not

self correct

reverse this course

of selfish action

find a way

another way

.

.

what do i know

though

with a dead lawyer

bothering my shoulder

except that he

deserved better

and

i

won

the case

he was right

about that

after all

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sometimes

if you

keep your eyes

open

and are

very lucky

you find

an avenue

of escape

from mistakes

in the past

an intertidal zone

of opportunity

for second stage

second hand

second chance

love

possiblity

to rewrite

your future

sometimes though

this makes

for

unhappy bystanders

unable to escape

tainted pasts

or correct

mistakes

in the future

stuck

in sorry sameness

sometimes

if you

keep your eyes

open

and are

very lucky

you may find it too

and if you are

really lucky

you might even

realize

you

deserve it

New York

in new york

people live vertically

but walk horizontally

there are so many of them

colliding there

that there is anonymity

in numbers

as you walk through the crowds on the street

you hear

“is it normal to have such a screwed up mother?”

“my psychiatrist says I need different medication”

“i am SO angry about it”

“i am really pissed off”

“my diagnosis is ptsd…..”

“if i can bring my counts under 40, my hiv will controllable for life”

in new york

since you know so many people are listening

who you will never meet

you don’t really care

you can say loudly

on the street

what other people whisper

in private

in a corner

that is not in new york

Argentina

in argentina

it is interesting

hiking in the pampas

in the peat bogs

in ushuaia

with the brits

who kept

referring

to the malvinas

as the falklands

walking to the head of the line

talking to the leader

in spanish

i was glad to leave

the colonials behind

in the bogs

they have them too you know

those peat bogs

at home

in the uk

wooly mammoths are resurrected there

and bog people

who are very old

and intact

still one tourist

a little plump

fell into a bog

and had to be pulled out

by the leader

she almost lost her pants

in the bog

maybe they would have been found

a thousand years later

there are unparalleled oil reserves

in the malvinas

argentinians know this

and don’t appreciate

the commonwealth

idealogy

rationalizing

taking their oil

and island away

one knew all this

and was ill at ease

hiking in the pampas

with the brits

in the bogs

because as an american

it felt odd

for a change

to be in another country

and not be the one

in the wrong